Ten Moments

The first moment: I am in a foreign place. I see them. Suddenly, spontaneous awareness happens, and I “see” some of their attributes.

The second-moment: I judge them. I don’t like what I see. I don’t like them.

Observation at the third-moment: They are not their attributes. It is not that I don’t like them. It is that I don’t like their attributes.

Observation at the fourth-moment: It is not that I don’t like their attributes. It is that I don’t like my negative reactions to their attributes.

Observation at the fifth-moment: From this dislike, I blamed them for my negative reactions and judged them.

Observation at the sixth-moment: I didn’t like the fact that I judged them, so I projected this dislike onto them. I tricked myself into thinking that I didn’t like them.

Observation at the seventh-moment: This is on me, not on them. That is why sometimes it is difficult for me to accept others as they are. I blame others for my negative reactions. I project my dislike of my negative reactions onto others.

Observation at the eighth-moment: I didn’t own my bullshit. I need to practice and work on this part.

Observation at the ninth-moment: I am hard on others because I am hard on myself. This is one of my childhood programmings. It controls and limits me. It is okay. I will breathe, relax, and learn at my own pace and on my own terms.

The tenth-moment: I forgive myself. I accept myself. I love myself. I am worthy. I am grateful for this lesson. Thank you, universe.

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